Tuesday, 18 May 2010

So dissapointed......

with myself....
each and every day I have so many plans and desires of tasks that I want to accomplish and I seem to be getting nowhere...
I don't think my plans are too big or even complicated its just clearing and cleaning and sorting out but something always seems to crop up that means changes to plans and the things I really want to get done just don't happen...

I have loads of "stuff" that I really don't need anymore and my head tells me to car boot it or eBay it but my heart just wants it gone sooner rather that later.... and my home de-cluttered and stress free.... I am tempted to car boot on Sunday morning but as I box things up I am at a loss to know where to store them... we have no room for stacking things, no spare bedroom, second living room or hall it is on occasions like these that you crave for space and I wonder if this is why I find myself taking much longer than I should to hang the washing or water the plants out in the garden away from all the clutter....

It probably doesn't help that I am feeling mentally exhausted and my physical energy is depleted too...perhaps you have experienced the "I am too tired to cook but eating junk just makes you even more tired!" its that vicious circle that just needs effort to break free from...

My brain keeps wandering off and contemplating all manner of things generally of a philosophical nature and I have to work hard to keep it focused on the mundane and everyday tasks that await my attention...

Mr P must of fallen asleep while playing sudoku on his phone and he dropped it behind the head board which clanged its way to the floor and shot me awake like a startled rabbit...
Danny was up in the early hours... he had a blocked nose... once I had sorted that out he was back asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow and didn't even remember it this morning...

This morning he was "not right" but he has livened up this afternoon... has eaten a little bit of this and that... all he complained of was a bad tummy... and I have heard him cough once or twice...

I am going to pull my finger from my derriere and get my rear in gear and miracle a meal with some kind of nutritional value out of my half finished kitchen... Mr P (bless him) spent this weekend scraping rubberised kitchen paint of the walls... should we ever move house (again) Mr P has vowed never to buy a house with this type of paint on the walls... he was not amused.., dusty.... but not full of the joys of life... unfortunately the kitchen is just the beginning and I think the lounge (our other room) will be next.... that will involve more scraping... but of the wood chip wall paper variety... the previous owner lurvved wood chip....

anyway off to search my little freezer for inspiration... something simple and nutritious....?

I know there's a chocolate fudge cake in there... never consumed for Mr P's Birthday treat... probably not the ideal meal for tea time... but would perhaps put a smile on Jamie and Daniel's faces! lol

Tarra for now my lovelies
take care
Alex
x






13 comments:

Pink Milk said...

Bless you Alex. I think we all go through rubbishy phases. Having your sleep interrupted doesn't help - I'm foul when I'm tired. Also, you've got so much to do in your house - it must be incredibly stressful.

Re the car boot, do try and do it. I'm sure it'll make you feel better. Could you get a large waterproof sheet from a DIY stall and store bits to sell in the garden?

If it's a teeny lift for you - I've just blogged the winners to my iPhone cover competition and you're one of them!

Keep smiling, Hx

Mary Poppins said...

You and me both Alex ;0) Hugs to you and yes I am aiming for a carboot too, got wayyyyyyyyyyyyy too much *stuff*

hugs and love

M XX

Josie said...

we sell stuff on ebay first, that way you don't have to get up early! yes I know you have to pay ebay fees but then you have to pay for a pitch at a car boot then petrol in the car to drive there!

what doesn't sell on ebay we sell at a car boot - good luck!

Josie x

ps) hubby is at work 8 hours a day so I make a list of 8 things I want to do each day, it can be housework, or sewing or decluttering, I don't always get them all done but its a start!

Sarah said...

Hi Alex
Sounds like you've got lots on your plate. Chip away at small things first rather than looking at the whole enormity of what you have to do. Get a few bits on Ebay first - might then make you feel a little better.
x

A Bun Can Dance said...

hello there lovely Alex
Oh I do feel for you - it sounds as though you've so much to do that really all you want is to sit down and eat cake, watch tv and let the world go by. As for your decluttering - if you think the value is minimal why not just take it to the charity shop? We do lots of car boots with our unwanted stuff, but we are fortunate to have space in the garage to keep it.
I wonder if you just need a day trip to Lyme Regis to blow away the cobwebs and set you right again? A little outing, some chips on the beach, walk on the cobb - oooh! it surely is what the doctor ordered??
Take care dear
sending you a big hug,
Denise x

Taz said...

Oh babe ((((big squidges))))
I know only too well how you feel, I love lists but sometimes seeing all the things I need to do and not getting them all crossed off makes me sad.
So when it all gets too much what I do instead is write a list of what I have achieved that day, even if it's only managing to cook a meal and put one load of washing on. I've got something done, no it's not the million and one things I have bouncing around in my head but I HAVE done something.

Sounds like you need a break hon, pop up to Scotland and come teach me how to crochet ;)

smilernpb said...

Oh dear. Sounds like you're having one of those ruts.

P is just the same, when we have lots of stuff, and I intend to do a boot fair or something, he just wants to stuff gone, as we too, have no room to store anything. So in the end, we just donate it to the local charity shop, so I figure at least we are doing our bit...however would be nicer if we actually got the reward. But then I think, do I really want the *hassle* of standing in the freeeezing cold and doing a boot fair? Erm, no.

Selling stuff on E-Bay now is rubbish too because of the amount of fees they charge, and also paypal charges soon add up...it's just not worth it. Brong back the e-bay of old, where it was just second hand things instead of traders!

Hope you get yourself sorted. Lots of love xxx

Cally's Cottage said...

Small bites Alex,don't look at the whole overwhelming picture- try to concentrate on little bits at a time... every little bag taken to charity and every thing thrown away- its all progress.
Then reward yourself by doing something that makes you happy!
Warm Wishes,
Cally x

Bigbluebed said...

Hi Alex

You will feel better when you have a clear out - it is very cleansing.

We don't have a car so have to take things to charity shops in little bits. And there always seems more to go. Luckily there are some charity clothes bins around.

It isn't necessary the solution to you feeling down but it will be a start. Also we are always here if you want to talk.

Connie said...

I truly understand what you mean. Online friends require easy maintenance, sugar! Much easier chatting this way most times because I don't have to wear a bra, ya know!

Thank you for all the sweetness you bring to my blog, chick! ;-)

xoxo,
Connie

karen said...

Oh hunni It seem's there are a few of us about feeling like this at the moment and it's just crap isn't it lol.
I don't make a list because It just seem's to grow and grow to an unmanageable length. I Just make a huge effort to do just one "sorting out" job a day and that way you feel like you've achived something without having to look at the bigger, more daunting picture too much.
But to be totally honest I just ache for a day off lol.
Hope your feeling a little better soon.
(((hugs)))
karen

Rachel said...

So sorry you're feeling low, Alex. I get feelings like that too - when the house is such a tip you just don't know where to start, and don't want to either (it happens every time I walk into Joe's room!) Sometimes taking that first step is so hard, but once it's done things seem so much better. I usually take stuff to the charity shops too, just to be rid of them. After all, I didn't buy them in the first place with the intention of selling them later...
Hope you feel better soon
R xx

Itch2stitch.com said...

You sound a bit like me Alex. But don't feel upset with yourself, you can only do so much! I find that if I try and look at all there is to do or pressing on my mind, then I get overwhelmed. My mind wanders too, and I start examining everything! Sometimes everything seems overwhelming. You are not on your own with these feelings. Being tired too is even worse as them you get those "I can't cope " feelings. I hope you feel brighter and lighter soon. Big hugs and love to you. suzie xxxx